Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Make Em Laugh

So some of you may be familiar with my latest comedic obsession. I am addicted to the website Damn You Autocorrect. It is a collection of texts gone horribly wrong due to iPhone malfunctions... In case you live in a cave, Mac apparently is so superior that it knows exactly what you want to say... even if you type something completely different. Heh. Exactly why I have a palm... I digress... So I will read this site until I am crying and sore all over from laughing so hard. It seems to be sweeping the facebook world and more and more people are sharing from the site. Good for them. :)

DYAC recently challenged it's fans to make videos of themselves reading the site and cracking up at it. Why of course I would have to take on this task. So here it is in all it's unglory: My DYAC Viewing Video...

I have posted the video on Youtube as well, here is the URL you can visit.

You need to check out the website though! Laughter is so good for you. Go have a dose and then some.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Sweet Little Lies

Why is it that I let myself be lulled into false security? I will never learn I guess. The problem is, I am willing to give up so much when I care about something... And somehow what I care about keeps getting ripped away and I am left with jack shit. I have a pretty major sacrifice that I have laid on the table right now. Nothing big has happened but I am completely on edge and wondering if I am making a horrible mistake. I want nothing more than to believe that everything I have been promised is true. But when you have been hurt like I have... Over and over and over... You grow to be more and more questioning of things. Especially with so much at stake. I feel like taking a sabbatical and avoiding the whole thing until I am sure I am not being screwed over. I hate this. I am being made to feel like a fool way too often. I truly thought that alot of things had changed but it is quite apparent that they are on track to be just like they were in the very near past in the very near future. It is occurring to me to get out before I have the chance to be hurt again... This time not just being hurt but also giving up ALOT. It must be understood that I am happier than I have ever been... I am just sensing some dishonesty. I just can't stand cheap talk. And I am hereby refusing to be the convenient answer or concellation prize. My feelings are worth something. I think it is time for me to take a deep breath and a step back. Not because I want to, but because I could never handle the aftermath of what might happen if I don't.

Thursday, November 25, 2010


Give Thanks

So it is here... Finally. This day of Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday for so many reasons... Namely the fact that this day is not about anyone getting anything from anyone else. No one wants anything other than togetherness and maybe some rockin food. Which is really how it should be much more often. Christmas has become kind of a joke as I have gotten older... Experiences have jaded me I suppose. I have just realized over time what a selfish day it has become. Anywho... That is a different post.

What am I thankful for? Well whether you would like to know or not, I am about to tell you.

1) My wonderful Family... My son is the light of my life, and even if he lets the bratty 4 year old out once in a while he is overall wise beyond his years and the sweetest kid ever.... My parents are amazing people. I can't be thankful enough for them.

2) My friends
... I can't possibly mention every single person that has touched my life this year, but the people that are ALWAYS there... No matter what I need... You guys are amazing. You should know exactly who you are, but in case you didn't... In no particular order: Kim, Josh, Lisa, Claire, Ashley, Yoshie, Patrina..... You guys are my rocks. I am so grateful for you.

3) My health
... It may not be ideal at this very second but it is improving... And I feel a little bit more control as it gets better.

4) Hanson
. Yes Hanson. I am thankful beyond reason that they have stuck around to give me joy every year and that they are these stellar young men that I am proud to support. They give so much back... And they are humble, gracious people. I can't express the love I feel for them... No that isn't stalker love... That is love gained from years and years of gaining comfort in their lyrics and words, and an overall admiration for them.

) I am thankful for my job. Mainly the fact that in this economy I can say that I have one... The fact that I love what I do, and the fact that I have been blessed with at least a few people that make it worth it to come in everyday. Yall are wonderful.

The fact that Arlo Guthrie is going to be on the Macy's parade and one can only GUESS what he shall sing! (Ahem... Alice's Restaurant....)

I am thankful for something I am usually quiet about... But that thing is my boyfriend, Josh. We have been through some rough times, but it has come full circle. I think we have re-found our thankfulness for eachother. Things are going somewhere for us and I couldn't be happier.

I could go on and on, but cooking and parade watching call. Love you guys.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Karma Chameleon

So in my infinite hours of boredom I have begun obsessively editing photos. Here is where you are welcome to be like my mom and tell me that if I am so bored I should clean my house. Thanks. I am not sure why I am taking such enjoyment in it... Probably because it is giving me full control to alter things however I see fit. Very refreshing.

I don't feel like I have the best grip on things at the moment. I am getting there but there are still some huge changes I need to make. Every day it just brings me more disappointment to see that the situation isn't getting any better. It is funny how someone can be so moody, and so unpredictable that you can almost predict how the next day will be. "If yesterday was so great just wait! I bet tomorrow will be angry gradeschooler living hell! Complete with fit throwing and silent treatments!" See... now I am rambling. When did this blog get all soap opera? Young and Restless just stopped in for a second. I apologize. Think I had better quit while I am ahead here.

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Wheel In The Sky

LEO Jul 23-Aug 22

Changing your geographical location will give you a different perspective on life and how you should proceed. Not everyone will be in favor of the choices you make but you have to do what`s best for yourself.

No joke, yall... This was the horoscope for my sign yesterday. How weird is that? I take these silly astrology things with a grain of salt under almost any circumstance. But this was a little too specific to completely ignore. Weird, right??

I am in such a weird place. I feel bad for all my friends. I pretty much have dropped off the face of the planet. I am tired... And I am just trying to sort alot of things out in my mind. My life, how it stands right now, isn't where I want it to be. I feel like I am falling short of goals and settling for less than I deserve. This is why I want to forge my own path and make my own destiny. I feel silly for saying so but this horoscope is a really nice affirmation of my recent ideas.

I hope I am myself again really soon. I do miss my friends. My head has just been somewhere completely different lately.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

She's Like The Wind

So as of recently I am feeling restless in my surroundings. Not restless as in let me buy a new sofa painting and floor lamp and a rug to tie it all together... Restless as in it is growing more and more apparent that there is not that much here for me in Joplin. Of course it goes without saying that my parents are here and they are everything to me. But as for me and Reed... I am thinking about the long term. The closer he gets to Kindergarten the more I realize that if I want to move, I best be planning it now.

I have thought alot about it... Silently of course because once I give this lovely news to my parents all hell will surely break loose. Bartlesville, OK is my favorite option.... It has everything I want and it is my hometown. I love the cultural side of it and the schools and overall environment for kids are great. I love Arkansas if I can ever get past the yucky pigs (razorbacks ughhh) everywhere. Of course going back to NC would be amazing... Cali has come to mind too. Recently though it has occurred to me to perhaps jump in head first somewhere new and different. I have never lived anywhere near a big city.... So I started thinking Chicago. I have never even visited the windy city... I will of course before I decide to live there, but that is later. There are factors in all this that shall remain unspoken but I am considering it very seriously.

I feel so silly for thinking about this. I am an only child and my only family is right here where I am. But I have never just set out on my own, with my own direction completely. Moving to NC wasn't a choice I made or helped make. It was the USMC making it for us. Maybe I am just itching to set my own path because I feel trapped. This place is full of people who just "feel silly" about leaving. Why? Why should I leave when this place has one of the the lowest costs of living, and I am pretty much guaranteed to keep my just above minimum wage job for as long as I want it if I do it right? I have a house, and friends, and family... It's all right here. But I want something more. Seems selfish, but it's how I am feeling at the moment.

So here it is. The savings account for my moving fund will be opened on Friday... and this summer break will be a busy one. I'm ready.

Friday, October 15, 2010

Coming Back To Life

So... It has really been a long time now hasn't it? Let's see... What has happened since I last made a blog... Ah! I have just the thing to get me back in the swing of this! A clever gimmick to aid me in not rambling... Carmen's Top Ten List!

Top Ten
Life Changing Events (2009-2010)

1) I am no longer married. I have been a single mom since August of last year. It was really rough on me at first, but I am more than fine with it now. It really was for the best for all three of us.
2) I am now working as a Preschool Teacher for Head Start. I love my job. I definitely miss the SAHM lifestyle more often than not though.
3) I am living in my own home. That is pretty special these days!
4) I have experienced the grown up dating scene and let me just say it is one ugly world! I was really let down by one person in particular, and it taught me to heed the words of someone wise I once knew... "When Someone Shows You Who They Are, Believe Them."
5) I acquired a Volvo. Life changing? I think so.
6) My son started school. He is doing really well. A recent development with him is his glasses. We just got them last week and already it seems his schoolwork is improving.
7) I got back in touch with alot of my good friends I had been missing while living in NC then dealing with the divorce. I also found time to make some new friends that are also awesome as can be! They have been there and helped me through so much... I don't have any idea what I would do without them.
8) I saw Avatar. Whoa.
9) I explored my inner spiritual roots and was surprised to learn what kind of tree I really am.
10) I was more recently given some medical news that really shook me up. It is very humbling to learn of your own fragility. I know I have spent my life saying "Not me!" and when that day rolls around where it IS in fact you... It hits you like a ton of bricks.

So yall... that is it in a nutshell. I don't know if anyone will even read this anymore but at least I will have somewhere to get everything out that I want to say. Facebook status updates are cryptic, and who really reads Facebook notes? Hopefully this will be the one successful attempt I make at actually keeping up with this.