It Takes Two

Hello, my little blogiverse...

So much has changed between now and all my past entries... I don't even know where to begin with this one! So I guess I will just come out and say it.

I am pregnant! Well... not just pregnant. I am REALLY pregnant. I found out yesterday, that Josh and I are expecting not one but TWO little ones. This explains the crazy symptoms I have had this time around. And the fact that I have been quite the raging you know what! :P

I went to the ER yesterday upon getting a voicemail from my GYN (who was helping me with my early pregnancy until my OB could fit me in) telling me he was concerned with my symptoms (alot of mild cramping that was really persistent.) and that he would like me to go to the hospital ASAP. So I did. I completely expected to go in and find nothing odd and be back at work before lunch. Speedy nurses got me through the blood draws and routine tests in record time. Then I was sent to the u/s room. I mentioned my past experience of there not being much to see at this point. (Of course as of yesterday I had been given a list of Due Dates spanning about 2 weeks! My levels showed 10/15/11 and my LMP showed 10/25/11. I kind of knew something was up... But I figured maybe it was just a girl. They generally cause confusion after they are born and as they grow up, so why not practice in the womb?) So you can imagine my surprise when I was in the room for over 30 minutes with this lovely wand in a place I don't wish to speak about. I even said to the lady "Now don't tell me there are twins!" As my polite "Heh, heh.... HURRY THE HELL UP!" She said "If it makes you feel better *I* won't tell you anything." I begin to think perhaps not all is well when the second lady is fetched. She and Lady #1 whisper and prod their magic wand and take many more pictures. I am starting to get rather nervous in fact. I get taken back to my room and start to familiarize myself with all the options that could await me. I prepare Josh that not everything is normal. The doctor comes in, sits down (that's usually less than good...) and says "Well, looks like you are about 6 weeks pregnant with twins." I stare. I blink. My mouth hangs open. I must have looked dreadful. I said to him, "Hold on... Let me lay down............ Now what did you say again?" He said it again. He really did say twins. Oh. My. Lord. My mind fluctuates between "WOW!" "EEEEEEP!!! :D" and "HOLY SH*T!!!" but I can't say anything. Eventually I regain some ability to think. The Doctor tells me that he saw two babies, two heartbeats, both around 100 bpm... One nice round sac and one smaller long sac. He is concerned for the smaller of the two. He put me on bedrest until my OB could see me.

So here I am. Still in bed on a Saturday evening. I see the OB at noon on Monday. My mind is still spinning. I have however, almost fully absorbed the idea of two little peanuts in there. Two cribs... Two carseats... Twice the diapers... WOW!!! I would have never dreamed this would happen to us, but I am so happy!!! I feel so incredibly blessed. I never win anything... I feel like I have won the pregnancy lottery! Now I am just praying and asking everyone I know to pray for the health of these little ones! I have gotten so attatched to the idea of two little lives inside me... I have done some research and feel alot better but I will truly breath a sigh of relief when we find two little heartbeats again on Monday. :)

THANKSGIVING SONG

Give Thanks

So it is here... Finally. This day of Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday for so many reasons... Namely the fact that this day is not about anyone getting anything from anyone else. No one wants anything other than togetherness and maybe some rockin food. Which is really how it should be much more often. Christmas has become kind of a joke as I have gotten older... Experiences have jaded me I suppose. I have just realized over time what a selfish day it has become. Anywho... That is a different post.

What am I thankful for? Well whether you would like to know or not, I am about to tell you.

1) My wonderful Family... My son is the light of my life, and even if he lets the bratty 4 year old out once in a while he is overall wise beyond his years and the sweetest kid ever.... My parents are amazing people. I can't be thankful enough for them.

2) My friends... I can't possibly mention every single person that has touched my life this year, but the people that are ALWAYS there... No matter what I need... You guys are amazing. You should know exactly who you are, but in case you didn't... In no particular order: Kim, Josh, Lisa, Claire, Ashley, Yoshie, Patrina..... You guys are my rocks. I am so grateful for you.

3) My health... It may not be ideal at this very second but it is improving... And I feel a little bit more control as it gets better.

4) Hanson. Yes Hanson. I am thankful beyond reason that they have stuck around to give me joy every year and that they are these stellar young men that I am proud to support. They give so much back... And they are humble, gracious people. I can't express the love I feel for them... No that isn't stalker love... That is love gained from years and years of gaining comfort in their lyrics and words, and an overall admiration for them.

5) I am thankful for my job. Mainly the fact that in this economy I can say that I have one... The fact that I love what I do, and the fact that I have been blessed with at least a few people that make it worth it to come in everyday. Yall are wonderful.

6) The fact that Arlo Guthrie is going to be on the Macy's parade and one can only GUESS what he shall sing! (Ahem... Alice's Restaurant....)

7) I am thankful for something I am usually quiet about... But that thing is my boyfriend, Josh. We have been through some rough times, but it has come full circle. I think we have re-found our thankfulness for eachother. Things are going somewhere for us and I couldn't be happier.


I could go on and on, but cooking and parade watching call. Love you guys.